Sunday, March 30, 2014

4 Years, Remembering Austen

Last Tuesday marked four years since Austen's death. Though his birthday is two days after the anniversary, the anniversary and the days approaching it always seem to be the hardest.

Last weekend I sat at our dining room table with Brendon, thinking about the week to come, and cried. It makes me sad to think about him being gone. In some ways, it seems like just yesterday that he was here, and in others, it seems like he's been gone forever... I've had two girls since then, and even though Lilleigh knows all about Austen, it's crazy to think she will never get to meet him.

Monday I went with a group of mommy friends and their littles to the Perot Museum, and it was a great way to lift my spirits! I have such a strong bond with these moms, as our kids were all born within two months of each other and for that first year especially we were each others' life line!

Tuesday was the actual anniversary. My sweet friend Katie G. watched my girls for me that morning, so I could have some alone time. I took my journal and Bible and sat at Starbucks, before grabbing lunch for all of us and returning to her house.

That afternoon, during nap time, my other sweet friend Katy (love the Katie's!) sent Tiff's Treats! Nothing like cookies to lift one's spirits!

And once Brendon came home, we set off balloons in memory of Austen. One balloon for each year he's been gone... or for each year of eternal life, thus far, as I like to think about it. (I'm not really sure there's time in heaven, but oh well.)

All that to say, I felt so loved and cared for. I'm really so thankful for these gems of friends in my life! Here's a video of us setting off balloons!

Friday, March 21, 2014

Adeline at 7 months

This month Adeline turned 7 months! Here's a bit about Adeline this month...
  • She loves to roll! She will tummy to back and back to tummy over and over again as she plays with her toys.
  • She also loves to sit in her exersaucer and walker (the sit-in kind) and play with toys as she watches what everyone else is doing.
  • Anything involving Big Sis Lil is very fun! Lots of laughs and smiles for her big sis.
  • When she wants to go to bed, she usually either puts her open hand to her mouth, fingers touching her lips, or puts her two middle fingers in her mouth and sucks on them, making a backwards "I love you" sign with her hand.
  • She is petite! 30th percentile for height, I believe, and 5-10 for weight. She can still fit into some 3-6 month clothes, though she is mainly in 6 month. And she wears size 2 diapers. I was thinking she and Lilleigh would miss seasons on clothes, but I think I may go pull out the bin of clothes I dismissed because some actually may work for summer!
  • She dropped her 3rd nap right around 6 months and after a week or so, she picked it back up. I think she is trying to drop it again though. So about half of the time she does take a third nap, and half, she doesn't.
Rough schedule...
7 AM wake up to nurse, then back to bed (DST helps!)
8:30/9 AM wake up, nurse
10-12 Nap #1
Nurse, play
1-3/3:30 Nap #2
Nurse, play
If she doesn't take a third nap, then a cluster feed happens here.
5:30 nurse, play, get ready for bed
6ish bed ...This was when she went to bed tonight, but if that third nap happens, she may go to bed as late as 7:30/45.

This month we also traveled to Houston for a week, and while we were there, I learned something new about my sweet girl. Adeline slept more than I think I have ever seen her sleep.  At first I couldn't figure it out. But then I was reminded of a book I'm reading, to help me with Lilleigh, called The Highly Sensitive Child, and it occurred to me that her sleeping so much is what I think is her infant-style manifestation of this personality type. As an HSC, she is easily overwhelmed, so by going to sleep, she is able to check out and go to her safe place. One night she even went to bed at 5:15! I felt bad that a lot of our family got very little time with her, but really I sorta felt bad for her, that she felt so over stimulated. That said, I do think it's awesome that she can self-soothe and that she clearly feels safe enough to let me know she's ready for bed.

Also early on Adeline looked a lot like me, and I still see it somewhat.  But her eyes totally look like Brendon's as a baby! See this photo... Brendon is on the left.

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Seeing Double

I have this photo of Lilleigh framed from when she was 5-1/2 months old.

And I'm a little late, but here is Adeline wearing the same angel wings at 7 months.

People often say the girls look alike. They totally do, but they're also each very distinct. What do you think?